They say that the daffodil represents new beginnings. Although a spring flower, it represents my today. I spent the day with my new grandson. He is now 40 days old. I feel so fortunate to be included in his life. I want to be there. I want him to know me. Yet, I think about the me that I want him to know and I realize that I have an awesome opportunity to begin again for this little man. I want to teach him so many things but know that he will ultimately teach me more!
Today, I watched as he smiled, over and over again, in his sleep, and I loved the thought that maybe he was dreaming of beautiful things. He didn't know that I was watching him with such awe. When he was awake, he looked at me and seemed to be watching me too, and perhaps pondering thoughts like: "Who are you?" "Are you a nice person?" "Will you take care of me?"
Then suddenly, he winced as if he was in pain and started to cry; one of those not really a cry kind of cries. I think he wanted to test the waters. So, this was a test. Would I pass? Well, today, we walked and he quietly settled into the rhythm while I logged the exercise. It was a win-win for both of us. He seemed to like the back and forth journey we took from the living room to the kitchen and back again. It doesn't take much to entertain him right now. I hope I can keep up the pace though and continue to show him that: Yes, I am a nice person and Yes, I will take very good care of him.
We spent the next couple of hours with him waking and sleeping and me watching his tiny little features and thinking that I have so many things that I want to tell him. Although, I won't be with him every day, I can write and share stories here. I love the idea of collecting memories and keeping them in this safe place. Who knows, maybe he'll teach me more than I teach him. Whatever it is, I'll write about it here.
Today's lessons from my grandson:
1. Smile. It's an easy thing to do and it leaves people wondering what you're thinking, and
2. Walking is good for both of us, so let's do more of that.